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I wonder if I am the only one who paid $600 to book a hotel to have a place to cry. I think I am feeling slightly lighter now after writing down a bunch of questions and thoughts and crying as much as I needed. At least I'll have the courage amd strength to go home tonight. (I almost bursted out crying this morning when I knew my brother ate the cupcake that my church friend gave me yesterday)

Love you very much Andy. I hope you know that you are always welcome and I want to always walk alongside you. Still hoping you'll reach out or meet me. But I love you enough to wait and respect your choices.