:((((

Finding peace can be difficult, especially when you don’t have a full picture and every day you feel like living in uncertainty.

Today was a busy day for me. I met two families, one is my parents’ friend’s, another is my cousin’s. It’s always happy to see some familiar faces, but I definitely used up my social quota of the week in one day. And when we were having dinner together because it’s Mid Autumn festival soon, I suddenly had this terrible feeling of ‘homesick’. I don’t really know how to describe it, but it’s a very uncomfortable feeling that I feel like going back to the days when I was still a child in a ‘safe’ place. I definitely don’t enjoy this feeling. I wonder if it’s because my brother and mom are leaving next week, I start to sense the loneliness of separation again.

I just keep clicking on your profiles and pictures when I have this awful feeling. Every time I clicked and looked at them, I feel like I am sending a SOS that can never be reachable. Maybe I just need some space alone to cry out everything to make me feel things are slightly more bearable. 🫂 Missing a hug from you.