Brief update

hello dear, how are you?

Sorry for the silence here, I’ve been a bit occupied with bonding with Chung, the guy I recently get to know. I met him again on Tuesday evening, and we started discussing openly about our interest in each other and confirmed with each other that we are exploring a romantic relationship.

Since then, we’ve texted a lot, partly because he is curious about everything about me. He has a loooot of questions to ask about me, and that includes my past relationships etc. I knew I will have to honestly share a full story of myself at one point, including the really broken and dark parts, but also the healing and lights that came through along the way, but I’m just not sure if I’m ready to do so. The truth is, I’ve never gotten that close with another person for a very long time. Even though he’s such a sensitive, patient, non judgmental person and good listener, and I know he is the right person for me to open up to, I still feel a bit scared.

But at the same time, this so far has really been a process that I feel God’s involvement throughout within me and him separately, but also between us. The kind of soulful and Godly connections and exchange that we both feel mutually is something that I’ve never experienced before.

I want to share with you more about him, but at the same time I also still processing, and I also don’t know if you’ll want to know such details. So this is something that I still want to sit on for awhile and let you know.

I will be meeting him again this Sunday. I’ve promised him that I will be transparent and share the full story of myself, and answer any of his questions.

I actually wonder how you’d feel knowing about all these, I guess you’d be happy that I finally seem to find someone who has the heart to catch me and embrace me, but maybe at the same time feeling a bit sad about watching me starting a new chapter potentially. I am still digesting a lot of thoughts and feelings. As you know me, that overwhelms me a lot, especially mentally. So I think I’ll just have to process all these slowly, and I hope you don’t mind that for now I might not also be sharing every single details here, because I really need to give myself a break from feeling so much all the time.

So that’s all for now. good night, my dear.