This pic probably sums up my yesterday attending the Disney event in Tsim Sha Tsui.
It was hot, Tsim Sha Tsui was crowded. My anciety just kicked in as I walked out from the ferry.
I met Jojo, Jenny and a few more from Meyer Labs. I am the fakest person in the world and I pretended to be at high energy level, but I couldn’t even look at anyone.
I wanted to run away all the time, so I made a lame excuse and left early when everyone was still there.
I left feeling like I just wanted to forget that 2 hours and pretended it never happened. It was so overwhelming and traumatic, and again it's nobody's fault, nothing terrible actually happened. But I just felt terrible about it.
I have been trying really hard to cope in the past 2 weeks since I came back and I know what my problem is. I put a grey filter on everything I see, I am scared every time I go I don't even know why. I am scared even when someone tries to have eye contact with me.
I miss you and I miss having people that make me feel safe.
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