Gastroenterologist consultation

hello dear, how are you? miss you 🫂

Today I had my consultation with the gastroenterologist. He basically said more or less the same thing as the first doctor that it might be Crohn’s disease, and he explained more in depth on how to diagnose it and the symptoms. Basically I’ll have to do some blood tests, CT scan and endoscopy for diagnosis. Because it is an inflammatory disease, he recommended me to get admitted to the hospital for these tests. So after I come back from my Japan trip, I’ll be going in the hospital next friday and hopefully only stay for one night for these tests.

I guess I’m still digesting all these information regarding this disease, but so far I feel like I’m actually more overwhelmed by this process of trying to find out what’s wrong with my body than the sickness itself. I guess it’s also because this reminds me so much of what happened back in 2022 when I was going through a lot with you and started to feel unwell physically that I had to be hospitalised suddenly. All these tests and doctor visits make me feel like I’m going back in time when it all started, the beginning of those tense emotions, that dark and lonely place.

I guess that’s how it feels when a trauma is brought up and triggered, because I’m just crying a lot more than usual again these days :( but at the same time, I feel God is in this too, and there’s this gentle but strong voice in my head battling with those scary feelings, telling me that I’m gonna be able to overcome my fear that is brought back from the past, because God has led me out of that place.

Hugs Andy :( I really miss you 😢

This was me earlier today staying strong going to the doctor appointment with my parents