Girl’s gathering and sharing

hello dear, how are you? :)

Today, I went to meet with my two girl friends (Nicole and Kristy the counsellor friend), it’s Kristy’s birthday few days ago. It was nice to see them and update them on my life, especially so much that’s happened on my side since I last saw them (my Japan family trip and then the hospital stay). I didn’t mention to them about seeing a guy though, I prefer to wait till I’m really sure about it or that we really start dating. But I did share with Kristy over messages a few days ago. She feels really excited for me, but at the same time reminded me to take it slow and not to rush anything.

I definitely see where she’s coming from and agree with her. Cause afterall, as I shared in the last post, I feel like I’m still processing it all, and there’s probably a lot of emotions that I still have to process before I can start this new chapter.

The last few days, he’s shown how much he’s into me and serious about our relationship. He’s actually never officially dated anyone before, and I feel because of that (which he agreed too), his affection for me is very pure while anxious. He’s still exploring what this might mean, the beautiful lovely part but also the hurtful disappointing part of a relationship.

Sometimes as I chat with him, I feel like I saw my younger self in him, who really wanted to explore the mystery of love but at the same time was scared by it and needed guidance. I guess because of that, I really see how precious his soul is and don’t want him to be hurt by me.

I will be meeting him tomorrow, in fact I’ve promised him that I will share more about myself and try to answer all of his questions or doubts about me (cause he has a lot and it’s understandable because I haven’t told him the more vulnerable and broken side of myself). I feel nervous about having to have this chat, but I also somehow know that it is something God has encouraged me to do for awhile.

That’s all I want to share today for now :) Miss you still Andy and wondering how you’re doing :)