Good friday

hello dear, how are you? 🤍

Today is Good Friday, the start of the long holiday. I really have been waiting for the holiday to finally come, because so much has been going on for me, and I really want to have some quiet time by myself so that I can digest all my thoughts and emotions and reset.

I mentioned I was getting sick few days ago, thankfully I went to my chinese doctor that day, and his meds was working, I don’t really have any symptoms so far except feeling very tired and sweating a lot. And as my period ends, I am also recovering, so at least I could still carry my planned schedule for the last few days.

Chung went on his 2.5 weeks trip to the UK and US to visit his family earlier this afternoon. I know we’re gonna miss each other a lot, so yesterday night, I had dinner with him at his home and spent some quality time together. And this time we had some more intimate moments together, not the most intimate/sexual kind, but just more physical touches. He has never dated before, so as you can imagine, it was such a “special” experience, especially for him. But what I really appreciated and felt at peace was how he kept thanking me for trusting him and assuring me over and over that he will cherish me, not just my body but my soul and heart.

I know that we both really enjoy each other’s presence and that we are able to develop connections in many aspects - emotionally, physically, and spiritually. He is also really patient with me and never pushes me to figure things out. But I did promise him that I will spend this 2.5 weeks reflecting and praying about me and him and what I really want while he’s away. So that’s something I plan to do for the next few weeks as I have more alone time with both him and parents away.

This evening, I attended my church’s good friday service. Just as the last few years, Easter really is a special and important festival for me. It’s a precious time for me to reflect and look back with a grateful heart to see how has saved and redeemed me in my mental health journey.

My church really has a heart to give us an immersive experience at the Good Friday service each year:

That’s all I want to share today, dear Andy. Wonder how you’re spending the holiday?

Lastly, I know you’d be curious about how Chung looks like. Today, we finally took a photo that I think I look marginally (😅) acceptable, marginally because I think I still look a bit sick and unwell. It’s from the airport after I drove and sent him off. As I told you before, he’s not a handsome guy (haha) or physically attractive. In fact, he gives so much of an ah suk vibe as well haha, and sometimes just acts like a silly child 😅 (does that sound familiar? :) so maybe that’s my type…haha 😅🙈)