Hospital stay

Mar 13
3 min read

hello dear, from the hospital 🏥 how are you? miss you 🤍

It might sound a bit disgusting, but I’m actually pooping as I write to you here 🥴 Because I’ll have to do endoscopy tomorrow morning, I had to start drinking some purative solution for me to clear my intestines. The solution is super sweet, and I have to finish 3L of them tonight 🤢 I don’t really mind the nonstop pooping, but the solution is really hard to drink and I feel like vomiting whenever I take one sip, so I’ve been drinking super slowly :(

Earlier today, I did my blood test and CT test right after I got admitted to the hospital. I don’t do these tests often, so I was still a bit nervous especially when they had to take my blood and insert the IV catheter on my hand. And they took 6 bottles of blood from me!

I actually have been feeling really dizzy and headache the whole day, I guess it’s because I’ve been on low fibre diet for a few days, and then they also didn’t allow me to eat anything today until I had my tests done. To top it off, they took so much blood from me as well 😅

My doctor came to visit me earlier in the evening with my blood test and CT scan report. He said I’m fine overall from my blood test, except that I am having anaemia. As for my CT scan, it shows that I have Uterus Fibroids, which is quite normal for my age, and also some bowel obstruction. He said he should be able to see it clearer tomorrow during the endoscopy.

Aside from all that, I’ve been trying to rest most of the time on my bed. I was a bit nervous and felt emotional at first in the morning, especially when I went through all the tests. But I feel more and more peaceful as it went.

In the afternoon, I spent some time to watch back the sunday service online from last week (I missed it cause I was in Japan travelling). And what really moved me was one of the worship songs that they sang, called “Living Hope”. I remember back in 2022 when I was in the hospital, I also watched the online church service of that Sunday, and that was the exact same song that was sang that week. When I heard it again today during the online service, I could really feel God’s comfort, as if He’s telling me that whether it is physically or mentally, but all the trauma that I felt, He is here to restore and bring healing in me.

I felt really scared about having to be in hospital at first because of my last experience that felt like the start of my long journey of being mentally and physically ill. But perhaps God is bringing me back to this beginning for a reason, that is to let me walk through it again, but closely with Him this time, to overcome this shadow that I have always been so scared to look back at.

Hugs, Andy :’)

Selfie of me having my very sad liquid meal today, hehe