These words about you overflew my mind today as I imagined how I would describe you to someone if I ever had the boldness to.
He is the guy that I knew I would like the first time I met him. But I never knew that one can make me fall in deep love gradually without even knowing it.
I like to pretend to be cool and hide my affection but I just fail terribly every time he interacts with me. I smile unconsciously every time when snippets of him flash through my mind, even till the very day.
All my life I've always doubted myself when it comes to love. Do I love because he/she loves me? Do I love because I want something out of it? Until I met this person.
If I can only choose one word to describe him, it'll have to be: Lovable.
All I know is I want to pour out all my love to him, even if it's imperfect and insufficient. I am going to try all things to make him feel loved, whatever is best for him, whatever I'm allowed to.
Sometimes I jokingly think, maybe God should have made me his mother. Because a mother loves her child enough to let go one day when he/she grows up. But even when she does so, the child is irreplaceable in her heart and she will always wait for the child to come back whenever he/she wants to or needs to.
I imagine one day when I am old and single and someone asks me to share my best secret. This will probably be the one. How I love someone so so deeply and how someone can stay in my heart forever.
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