Self doubt and silly Hannah

hello dear, how are you? miss you.

Today was a day with unexpected moments for me. I went out for dinner with a friend last night and I was quite tired, so even though I knew quite a few people would be in the office and I actually also would have an external meeting today, I decided to be a complete introvert and worked from home. But then after a meeting I had in the morning, I received some last minute requests that would require me to be in the office. So I decided to go in (unwillingly) last minute.

It was already 12:30ish when I left home, so I told Edison to let me know where they’d go for lunch, and I’ll join them late. But turns out they were late too, and it just so happened that they just got down to the ground floor when I arrived with my car. And then it became a scene where everyone was just stood there watching me park my car 😅

I enjoy driving a lot but I am the kind who is always stressed about parking. And the car park at Meyer always feels kinda tight, especially today there was another car in there. So I was even more stressed when all these guy colleagues were watching me and waiting for me to park. I actually know that when I am more relaxed and chill, I can actually manage parking quite smoothly and confidently. But at that moment, the self doubt Hannah really just took over and I was soooo perplexed 🥲

This was what I saw as the gate opened up 😅 I was already panicking on the inside when i started to see so many “legs” as the gate opened up. There were Jason, Howe, Edison, HR May, and another two persons that you don’t know, and the car park suksuk…

In the end it took me a few turns, but thankfully I parked fine in the end. But still, I actually kinda felt a bit bad about myself :( I miss you, because you are always very sensitive and know how to ease my nerves whenever I am stressed and doubt myself 🥺

Here is my outfit today, it’s a new outfit that I recently bought. I thought it’d make me look “cooler”, but I think I am still silly :(