Valentines day 2025

hello my dear Andy, how are you? It’s valentines day today 😊 how did you spend today?

For me, firstly I had my vocal class at noon, then I went to causeway bay to have my favourite fishball noodles and did some shopping by myself, then I went home and rest.

It sounds like my typical weekend activities, but I guess I especially enjoyed it today, because after being so socially drained from work during the week, I just really needed some me time to recharge. So today, it just felt soo good to be walking under the sun with such good weather, having my favourite comfort food, and doing something I enjoy.

When I was walking down some of the busiest streets in Causeway Bay, I was actually a bit surprised by myself that I wasn’t triggered by couples and girls holding flowers around. I could remember in the past, I would feel quite sensitive for being single out there on valentines day. But today, I don’t know why I wasn’t feeling that same bitterness or avoidant that I used to hold tight to, I was just feeling quite at ease, and even secretly grooving on the music that I was listening (haha) as I walked down the streets.

I don’t really know how to describe it, I don’t think I would say that I’m willingly or “happily” single, it’s more like I no longer feel the same level of desperation of being in a relationship as I used to feel before. It’s strange for me to say that’s how I feel now. Because as you know me and especially witnessing my journey, you know how much I long for an intimate relationship where I could feel understood, loved, and cared. I still feel that way, but I guess part of my growth over the past year is understanding that this is not something that I can force or rush to make it happen.

I guess as I approach 30 this year, this anxiety of being single will be something that I have to face from time to time. Which is why my prayer to God on this (which I genuinely believe he listens and knows my heart’s desire) has been that if he thinks that I’m ready, he’ll lead me to the right person, and things will happen “naturally”. And in the meantime, I’ll learn to focus on my personal growth.

With all the above said though, Happy Valentines Day, dear Andy. I think about you extra on this day while I enjoyed the day on my own 🤍

The blue sky today really brightened up my day, so I stayed at the platform at my place enjoying it before I went back home :)