Weekend long sharing

hello dear, how was your weekend?

Miss you, sorry for not writing here yesterday. I washed my car yesterday afternoon and I got quite tire after I lied down on my bed in the evening, and I felt asleep early.

It’s my second time washing my car, this time I tried actually washing using a horse instead of wiping down with some waterless cleaner. It’s so much easier and quicker. But this time I had a new challenge, that is there’re some rust water marks on my car, and I couldn’t get rid of them just with the regular car shampoo. I believe they came from the pipes at the ceiling of my car park. I was quite anxious at first, especially because they are really obvious at the front of the hood :( but then I realised one of the cleaning solutions that Edison gave me was an iron rust remover. I tried using it on those marks and they came off in the end thankfully.

I feel that I quite enjoyed the process so far, especially appreciating how clean the car is after a wash. I also really like that I’m learning something new each time about how to better take care of the car. I am thinking next time I will try waxing it, hopefully it wouldn’t be too hard :)

Here is my silly car wash outfit, buckets included :)

I really like this photo I took under the lights after the car wash

And for today (sunday), I feel like my PMS is starting to kick in, so I was a bit extra emotional, but I had a long full day being outside.

Firstly, I went to church in the morning. I had a really great time that I felt God really responded me on some of my struggles lately through today’s sermon. The topic of today’s sermon is “Worries that choke”. It talks about a lot of times, our unnecessary anxiety comes from deeper “false” needs that stem from our heart. It might be things like our needs to control, to achieve perfection, to seek approval, or even needs to be there for others. When these things are not properly acknowledged and addressed, they can be what stops us from growing further spiritually.

I feel like this really speaks to me, because as you know me, I struggle a lot with worrying and anxiety. And as I reflect on some of the things that frustrate me recently, such as how I feel I’m not good enough at singing, or how I am so sensitive to Edison judging me/being mean to me, I realised those are exactly things that reflect my deeper “false” needs, to achieve perfection (in singing) and seek approval (from people I care about). But as a Christian, when facing these insecurities, the answer is actually to remind ourselves that God has all these characters that we’re chasing for, that leads to a healthier way of responding to these needs.

Here is the summary page of how the sermon concludes that one of my care group members took and shared.

I feel like I am still going to be challenged by this in the coming week as I stress about work and other things. But I hope that I’ll practice to navigate better and grow in it.

I also went to the funeral of my cousin-in law on my dad’s side in the afternoon. He passed away because of cancer. I never mentioned about his passing, because my dad’s family is quite big and we weren’t really that close. I was there mainly because we are related, and we didn’t really stay for a long time. But still, I guess there’s some emotion to digest.

Miss you extra today, dear Andy 🤍 Want to hug you 🫂 good night

PS: I went shopping with my brother to help him get some new outfit, it so happened he tried something all black and we were matching: