29 years old Hannah :)

hello dear Andy, how are you? 🤍

It’s my 29th birthday today :)

This year, I decided that I don’t need any special plans for my birthday. I went to church as usual in the morning, then I met with my friend Nicole in the afternoon to go to my favourite fishball noodles place in causeway bay. After that, I got back home to have home cooked dinner by my mom with a simple celebration :)

The reason I didn’t make any big or special celebration for my birthday is because I genuinely already feel very grateful with where I am at in my life.

I took some time in the past week to reflect on this past year. And when I did that, I was actually shocked by how much progress I’ve made in the past year:

• I went to a mission trip to Vietnam

• started my exercise routine, which really impacted both my mental and physical health, and even my singing skills!

• had a memorable stay in the UK for a month that God turned it into an opportunity to bring reconciliation and healing in my relationship with my parents

• wrote my first ever song :)

• got my “dream” car 🚗

This morning, when I had my devotional time before I woke up, I looked back at these words that I journaled at the start of this year: “So, for the 2025 Hannah, what are you made for? More is what you are made for.” I couldn’t help but started tearing up, because I am pretty sure the Hannah 1-2 years ago definitely would never have thought that she could go so far and accomplish ALL (not just one) those things I listed above.

You’d probably know better than anyone else from this blog, but that is more than just a list of accomplishments, each of them has a precious story behind and holds a really special place in my journey of growth and faith. I know that I couldn’t have gone that far from my darkest days if it wasn’t God who meets me with immeasurable encouragement and grace every time I choose to let go of my wounds and fear, and make the first step out of my comfort zone. For that, I am really grateful and humbled.

To me, my 28th year (2025) is a year where God really showed me his power to transform my life when I let him to, and how trusting him and letting him be the author of my life truly look like, and that is I can be at peace in the unknown, even when I don’t have the answers to everything, because I know that God does and His way is greater than mine.

Another thing that I am really “proud” of myself is that I can really see my improvement in being more in touch with my own feelings. Can I tell you a secret? 🙈 I still cry at least once every day (mostly in the morning), haha. I am truly Hannah bb as Edison and Jojo say, haha. But over time, I can feel that my crying has changed from being very uncontrollable and unpredictable, to a necessary routine for me to release and regulate my emotions. It’s a bit like a tap🚰 , I turn it on so that it can flow, but I also have learnt how to turn it off when I have to. And I am more at peace with accepting that I am a sensitive person often overwhelmed by a lot of emotions. But instead of pushing it down and bottling it all up within me, I can feel and release my emotions by crying them out.

Lastly, just wanted to let you know while I celebrate my growth and love from God and everyone around me, I think about you extensively on this day. Like I said, I don’t have the answers to everything. I don’t know if we’ll ever meet again, I don’t know if I’ll stay single forever, I don’t really know. But I am more at peace with saying that “I don’t know”, and I know that God will continue to lead us if his plan is for our path to cross again :) In the meantime, let me say, love you and miss you loads, dear Andy 🤍

PS This website is called 25hannah because it started when I was 25, and here we are today, I am turning 29 😊

My favourite pic with my pinky dog 🤍