A pack of candy :’)

hello dear, how are you? The weather cools down for a bit finally today, do you like it? Miss you.

I took a day off today, because I will have to go to Guangzhou again on Friday and Saturday, staying a night for phase 2 of Canton fair. So I thought I’d take a day off to let myself rest and hopefully recover mentally sooner before the trip.

I went to my chinese doctor appointment in the morning, I already shared with him about my mental issues over messages in the last few days, so he already knew my situation. He said my mental state is not very good, in chinese medicine world, he said a lot of “heat” is trapped inside my body, especially the upper half of my body. That’s why I can’t sleep well, feel very tense and emotionally unstable.

When he was checking my pulse, he suddenly asked me a really random and kind of funny question. He asked if I’d had any candy, and I said, “huh, no…?” He said he thinks I should have some candy, then he gave me a pack of candy that he originally bought for himself (haha), it’s a big pack of candy. He said my body is very tired and lack of energy, probably because of all the crying, that’s why he wants me to have some candy 😅 Then he also did some acupuncture for me to help me feel better.

I actually felt really touched deep down that I almost wanted to cry, even though it’s just a pack of candy and it’s kinda funny because it’s so random and it’s as if I’m like a kid who is upset and gets sweet treat. But it’s really the small, unexpected kind and gentle details that made me feel cared and comforted.

I do feel better today, I guess because of both the treatment and medication, and the candy. I hope I’ll start to notice more of these small moments that bring warmth and comfort to my heart, and be healed by them bit by bit.

Hugs 🫂 :’)

My autumn look: