Not so attractive me

hello dear, how are you? miss you 🤍

I think my period is coming soon (again) and I am starting to feel very tired all day and also a “declining” mood. Yesterday, I went to the office and had quite a packed/stressed day, because while I worked, I also had to sort out the car insurance for my car. It’s not as straightforward because I decided to put the car under my dad’s name to get a cheaper insurance with no claim discount, so I had to coordinate with my dad as well for the whole process. But it’s all sorted now and right now I am just waiting for the seller’s assigned garage to complete the ownership transfer, and I can go pick up the car.

I am trying not to be too excited just yet until everything is done, so that I am also cautious enough to make sure I won’t be scammed in any way because this is also my very first time handling all these things. But so far, the seller and the garage seem to be quite corporative and understanding, and I also got so much advice and help from Edison, so I really has been so grateful for everything along the process, and I just hope it all goes well in the next few days.

On the other hand, I am slightly troubled by the guy that I recently started chatting with (his name is João). Last night, he mentioned about he needs to get a bank loan, and he started to share about his finances. Without sharing too much details, basically his financial situation is just really bad at the moment. But that is not what truly concerns me. I am more concerned about his attitude that he seemed to think that is fine, and he isn’t really taking any concrete action (like doing a financial planning, cutting his expenses) to improve the situation aside from just sitting here and waiting to hear back from his Cathay application. But at the same time, he shared about how depressed and frustrated he is feeling overall.

It troubled me because on one hand, I am a bit annoyed to see that he is not identifying the true cause of his problems and it’s hard for me to point that out without being blunt and inconsiderate. But on the other hand, I guess I do empathise and can relate deeply with the overwhelming emotions that he’s feeling. So I am really trying my best to be patient and respond wisely in my conversations with him as a friend. But at the same time, I am also leaving some boundaries and space for myself, so that I won’t be too influenced by his negative emotions.

How about you dear? Miss you and wonder how you are doing. Good night 🤍

My not attractive at all look yesterday in the office