hello dear, how are you? I miss you a lot today 🤍
Today is the first day of my 5-day break from work. A few weeks back I decided to take 3 days off because I felt like I really needed a break, a real break without work and parents, and even travelling (as that is still considered as mentally tiring for me). I don’t have anything special to do during this break actually, I just wanted to give myself the space to pause and recharge.
Since the weather is so good today, I decided to go out to a coffee shop for breakfast, then I drove to Big Wave Bay, my favourite beach, to enjoy the sunshine and breeze.
It’s been a very very long time since I last visited even though this is one of my favourite spots in HK, because it is also a place with a lot of good and bad memories. I often feel a lot whenever I go there, and as you know, I don’t always enjoy feeling that “a lot” from myself. But today just felt like the day for me to revisit this old place, and I didn’t regret it :)
l used to come here alone too, and deep down I would feel very lonely that I don’t have my favourite person to be next to me at my favourite place. But today as I sat alone, I felt different.
Of course I would still hope that someday I can share a moment like this with someone really really special, but I also felt like I genuinely enjoyed the alone moment more than ever. I realised that part of my growth is that I now know better how to hear my heart and what God has to say to me whenever I’m in these silent moments. And it delights and recharges me as I feel that I am drawn closer to my heart and God.
(here is me with closed eyes because I looked swollen, haha)
I brought my notebook with me so that I could write down anything that comes to my heart, and words that I felt God is reminding me of.
After that, I went back home to rest for bit, and then I had to head out for dinner with ah Wing (if you still remember him). But before that, I decided to go to my secret sunset hideout, again a place that I haven’t gone to for a long long time.
It is actually at where Edison lives, Braemar Hill. That’s why I avoided going there for a period of time, especially he was actually the one who showed me this spot. But now that I have resolved and am at peace with our relationship, I feel like I can come here to enjoy the view again without getting too sentimental.
Isn’t this amazing? I am so glad that I decided to go up there tonight :)
Miss you, dear ❤️🩹
I am proud of myself today for overcoming the loneliness, but I still have to ask…
Can I bring you to these favourite places of mine (again) someday, my dear?
You don’t have to answer me now, you just need to remember that I love you and I always think about you when I visit beautiful places like these :)
PS. I matched a new outfit today, what do you think about this? 😊 I think I quite like it.
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