Day 14 Before I go

hello dear, how was your day? I think about you a lot today.

I am at the airport waiting to leave and fly back to Hong Kong as I write. I am not sure why I haven’t been feeling very good today since I woke up. I got that same “gut wrenching” feeling that starts from the stomach and go upwards to my breath. I feel like I can’t breathe with very quick heartbeat, and it makes me feel like I can cry anytime.

I wonder if it’s in my subconscious that is feeling this travelling anxiety, because I don’t think I am feeling particularly stressed, or at least I feel like I have regulated my emotions already, but I am still having these physical reactions of anxiety.

But don’t worry too much about me, I actually have made an appointment with my chinese doctor already on the next morning I land because I think I am not fully recovered from my cold yet. And his medicine should be able to help me with my physical symptoms of anxiety too.

Here was me checking out from the hotel earlier today.

I went to Scribbler earlier today and I think of you when I saw these cards 😊 miss you 🤍

I took a shower at the lounge this time, I think it made me feel slight better. See you in HK very soon 🥺