Day 4: Fukuoka

hello my dear, how are you? I miss you a lot a lot today.

Today is our last full day in Kyushu, we drove from Kumamoto back to Fukuoka today. Maybe because it’s already the 4th day that I am stuck with my parents (& brother) for the whole day and my period is coming, I can feel my mental state is dipping to the lowest point.

I really want to let my emotions out by crying, but unfortunately I am staying in the same room with my brother tonight (We had our own room yesterday & the night before), and I am using all my strength to hold myself together to not cry.

It’s just all the emotions I have bottled up and carried over the last 4 days trying to manage this family trip with my parents and brother. And I feel like no matter what I do or how hard I try, either of my parents or both are still going to be unsatisfied.

I probably can’t share more here tonight because I will start tearing up and I don’t want my brother to notice. I will maybe share about it the other day.

I miss you extra on a day like this. Sorry that I don’t have any photos today :( The only photos I’ve got are these random photos of me in the coffee shops that my mom took. Good night, dear.