Dear Andy 🤍

hello my dearest, how is your long weekend so far?

For the past two days of holidays, aside from having vocal class earlier today, I haven’t really gone out for any social activities. You might also notice that I haven’t shared a lot here for the last few days since my parents left, because I really have been taking the time to organise those messy thoughts that have been on my mind for a long time and give myself the space to let those thoughts sink in. And today for the first time in awhile, I finally felt a bit less strengthless when pondering over all these thoughts related to the future. I decided to write them all down in my journal notebook along with what I felt God has responded to me so far regarding my doubts/questions/thoughts on different aspects of life. I feel a lot more at peace after doing so.

I really want to share with you in more details or specifics of what I have been thinking, but one of the things that really surfaced as I go through this process of resetting myself is that I really hope to reconnect with you.

I know that this might still be out of line, but it’s been almost 600 days since we last spoke/met back in Aug 2023. I have been persistent to share about my life with you here for the past 1.5 years. And if you have been reading, I am sure you have witnessed not just my ups and downs, but also my growth. But for me, I haven’t heard from you since then and I just really really really want to know how life has been for you, and I can also share in more details about what I’ve been thinking.

I know this ask might put you in a bit of stress, and this really is not my intention. I am not at the edge this time. I just have been having this urge in my heart that perhaps it’s about time to chat or meet with you again. I assure that this time I won’t repeat the same mistake again of trying every possible attempt to reach you without your consent. You can take your time to consider my invite to connect. And even if you decide this is not the right time to connect, it’s totally okay. I will still be here on this website, quietly for you 🤍, continuing to write about my everyday life and patiently wait for the next time.

It takes immense courage for me to ask you about this, because I am scared of rejection and disappointment. But I know you are worth it because aside from how much I love you and desire for you to be mine, even though we haven’t spoken for 1.5 years, I still see you as my closest, best friend. The depth of what you know about me is more than anyone else in this world, and for that, I really cherish you as a friend. I can easily make myself available anytime, and you can find me anywhere you want to.

Lastly, in case you misunderstood my tone, here is a selfie of me writing this to you on bed tonight 😊 even though I still look quite bloated.

Love you and miss you, dear Andy.

PS. I also realised there seems to be a bug on the website to scroll through the blog on mobile. I am sorry about that and I think I fixed it.

My trying to be cool outfit today.