First office day 2026

hello dear, how are you? I miss you extra on these coooold days, hope you are staying warm 🤍

For me, it’s taking some time, but I feel like I’m gradually feeling better each day, both physically and mentally. I still cry more than usual and sometimes I just have to pause and cry first before I can be “functional” again, but I feel better and better bit by bit every time after crying.

Yesterday, I went in the office for the first time for this year. It felt like it’s been quite awhile because I also didn’t go in last week of December. And I guess because of that, it felt a bit more overwhelming than usual, and think I actually was quite nervous subconsciously without realising.

When it was lunchtime, they asked me to pick what to eat. I actually didn’t have much appetite, so I just randomly picked Thai food. But I ended up eating only very little, and everyone seemed to be so surprised by the amount of food I left.

I felt quite bad about it after I got home that night. I know that part of why I wasn’t eating was because I was in a stressed state which affected my appetite. But I should also know that recently my stomach and digestion isn’t very good, and my body really needs me to take in more food and nutrition so that I can recover sooner. Otherwise, I might get even skinnier again. So I remind myself that I will try to eat more in the next few days.

I miss you, my dear. I miss that you would go out with me at lunch to have food that I like. You are my favourite company. 🥺

And today, I drank this tea that has slowpoke (you) on the bottle 😊