Growing Hannah

hello dear, how was your start of week? 😊 miss you.

Today I went in the office, it’s the first time since I came back from Japan. Turns out a lot of people were in the office including Vincent and Raunaq. And there’s someone surprising that came back — Josh. I don’t think you’ll remember him, he was Vincent’s chief of staff before Raunaq replaced him. But this time he is back for a different role.

What’s interesting about him is that we actually go to the same church, but because our church is quite big with multiple floors and sessions, I only bump into him occasionally. He is also Edison’s best friend (they are uni mate). So I guess I always have this weird feeling about him because we seem to have a lot of common connections but we don’t actually know much about each other.

Maybe because it also happened that a lot of people were in the office today and this scenario of him being here reminds me of the old days (like the really old days when Lovey was still here), it felt a bit overwhelming for me.

But it also made me realise that I have grown so much over the years. I used to be really timid whenever there were a lot of people around, especially in front of these “big guys” like Vincent, him, or Lovey. I would secretly feel nervous. But today, even though it felt a bit like I was on the spotlight from the moment I went in the office because a lot of people immediately started to ask me things, I was able to manage it confidently. And before lunch, I also took the initiative to go into Josh’s room (Lovey’s room) to greet him. I even made everyone laugh when I was being asked about my Japan trip and I said out loud that I don’t like Cherry Blossom because I think they are so temporary and too lively for me 😅 Everyone laughed at said I am so dark, which is actually so true, haha.

Miss you, Andy dear, a lot a lot.

The growing and sometimes struggling Hannah who is so easily overwhelmed👇🏼