Hannah haircut

hello dear, how are you? miss you 🥺🥺

I have been a bit busier than usual, mainly because Christmas is approaching. Just like the last two years, I really wanted to take the opportunity of this time of the year to spread some love to people I care about, so I’ve been preparing some christmas cards and gifts. I want to keep it simple this year, so for friends that I will meet in the coming two weeks, I plan to bake some cookies for them with a small christmas card note. But I am also thinking about people who are not here in HK that I think about, like my previous domestic helper, my friend in Taiwan, and Jojo in the UK, I decided to pack a snack gift box to send it to them.

I try to keep it low effort this year because as you know, quite a few new things have happened in my life, but it’s still taking me quite some time and energy to get all these Christmas stuff prepped. But somehow I feel this is also part of my intention to practice giving during christmas time, it is to remind myself that love always involves some kind of sacrifice, whether it’s time or energy or money.

I was working from home today, and for some reason, I feel that I have been extra overwhelmed by my own emotions since yesterday night. They are not all negative emotions actually, it’s an overwhelming feeling that “I am feeling a lot”, and that makes me having to pause my work and just take some time to release those emotions by crying hard.

I guess there are quite a few reasons that lead to me feeling a lot. Firstly I can’t deny that listening to Joao’s sharing of his mental struggles has some triggering effect on me even though I have already intentionally avoid that. But I also feel it is because as I get busy lately with things like getting a new car and christmas etc, I haven’t really had time to slow down and properly digest the mental changes I am going through with these new life changes. I also didn’t realise my 29th birthday is that soon (coming Sunday), and I don’t want to miss this opportunity to have some down time on my own to reflect like I did in the last few years. So I decided I will make sure I find time for that despite my busy schedule in the coming week. I hope by then I also will have the chance to share more of my deeper reflection with you here :)

Me yesterday, I went to have my haircut

I saw this cup noodles at a snack store, it makes me think about you 🥺