Hannah in the office :(

hello dear, how are you? miss you 🥺

Work has been quite busy and slightly stressful recently, I had to go into the office today for a meeting with Vincent in person. It is for a project that Edison and I worked on together with a few others.

But then aside from the busy work, I felt a bit sad today because Edison was doing the same thing again where I felt like he was being extra mean to me whenever we’re both in a conversation with someone else. This time it was when we were discussing some work stuff with Patrick, and I asked a slightly no-brainer question. He could have just answered “yes” or “of course yes”. But he said “no shit”, even if it was such a stupid question.

I don’t know why it just got me all triggered that I felt very sad deep down, but it definitely wasn’t a good moment to get emotional, so I just kept it within myself until the conversation finished, and I went to the bathroom and dropped some tears :(

I don’t understand why he’s sometimes very mean to me and I feel like he only does that to me. I am sure if someone else asked that question, he wouldn’t have responded like that. And what I don’t understand even more is I feel like he’s a lot nicer when it’s just the two of us. For example, when we went to the garage to fix/service our cars during the weekend, he never talked to me like that even when I asked a lot of stupid questions. Instead, he always explains things patiently to me. In fact, even just after what happened, I don’t know maybe he also felt like he was a bit blunt or he sensed that I got upset, he became nice to me again when the office became quiet with just the two of us.

So I just really don’t understand why, and it makes me feel frustrated and sad whenever he does the opposite especially when it’s in front of others.

I am getting emotional again, I feel like maybe I am just tired and should rest. Miss you dear 🥺

Here is me, after the small crying :( I guess no one could tell