Hannah loves crying

hello dear, how are you? miss you ❤️‍🩹

I think I cried even more today haha, in the morning and then in the afternoon after church, but I feel that they have changed a bit, almost like it has become “good tears”, because I think I am actually feeling better after I cry each time. But there are still some side effects, like I am having some really bad migraines and dizziness, and I think it’s because I cried too much.

I think another reason I am getting slightly better is because I was really comforted by today’s message at church. It’s like God just wanted me to know that even I can’t utter the words to describe my feelings, he sees me and understands me through my tears, and throughout the whole service, I could feel this warmth coming through my heart.

I had my second pre trip meeting for the Vietnam mission trip after the church service, and we are startting to be briefed on more details about the trip. We will mainly be hosting 3 days of day camp for kids, and we will start preparing materials and activities for the camp next week. The leader asked us to pick one area out of these four in the coming week and let her know: worship, craft, bible stories, and games. I think I am going to pick worship, because I used to lead worship at the Sunday kids school in my previous church, and even I am not professional, I know music is one of the gifts that God has given me. But I have never done it in English before, and it also has been quite awhile since I last did it, so I think I will still feel a bit nervous about it.

I am going to rest early tonight, because I have a long week ahead at work. I have to meet some external partner tomorrow at 9:30am in the office, and unfortunately our family car had some issues earlier today and it’s now in repair, so I will have to take the bus. Believe it or not, I have actually not taken bus to the office since I returned to Meyer after my UK study. This will be the first time and I am actually a bit nervous that I’ll feel emotionally triggered by the memories.

Miss you, dear Andy.

Here is me today after church, the in-between crying time when I felt better. Good night ❤️‍🩹