Have it to the full.

Miss you, my dear. How are you doing?

I have been experiencing some PMS symptoms in the last few days, nausea, dizziness, weird stomach and some cramps. I noticed that these symptoms are always more serious when I have my first period after travelling back from the UK. I guess my body is still adjusting and I probably need to tell my chinese doctor about it.

I went into the office today, it was Jojo’s birthday on Wednesday so I prepared a cake. Miss you. a lot a lot.

Earlier the morning as I woke up, I was giving myself time to meditate on what is it that God wants to remind me of today (this has become my daily routine now). And I came across this verse again that I’ve repeatedly seen in different occasions in the last month: “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”

We Christians talk a lot about having eternal life in heaven after this life. If I am being completely vulnerable, sometimes my suicidal depression would use this to manipulate my mind, that I shouldn’t hold on to anything in this life.

But as I sat on that verse yesterday morning, for the first time in a long time, I allowed that side of me to be challenged.

“I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” All of a sudden, I realised that God wants me to know that it is not just that eternal life that he wants me to have my eyes fixed on, he also desires me to live this life in all its fullness, the life that he has set my foot in for a beautiful journey that he’s taking me on.

I don’t know if I shared with you before, but I struggle a lot to get out of bed every day, especially if I know it is going to be a long day, having to meet people etc. Some days are worse, some days are slightly better.

And this: “So go have it to the Full, my girl.” was the voice I heard in my heart that I chose to follow as I wrestled yesterday morning.

I am still learning and figuring it out everyday what it really means to live this life to its fullness. But I know that I am starting to try to see things differently from how I may have been.

Love you and I think of you. 🤍

Coffee that Edison made me

The ugly me trying on an apron that they are working on

A Pikachu dehumidifier that Edison gifted me

I wore the earings that I bought from Disneyland Paris, it’s the Lion King Simba and I really like it

Miss you and love you, my dear.