hello and hug

hello dear, how are you?

Sorry that I didn’t write here over the weekend. I think my period is coming soon and I have been having these PMS symptoms again, I have been feeling really drowsy the past few nights that I couldn’t really write.

And today I really felt the PMS hit me hard. Aside from feeling quite moody, I started feeling this chest collapsing feeling since the afternoon. It made me feel really hard to breathe. I thought I would massage my ribs to relieve the pressure, but it felt so pain whenever I touched my ribs, and I don’t know why as I did that, my breath just became like a crying one and I started tearing up. It was so uncomfortable.

I think it’s caused by my PMS and mentally, so I think I will see if it gets better in the next few days. I also have my chinese doctor appointment on thursday, so hopefully I will feel better soon.

Jojo is actually departing for the UK tonight. I thought about sending her off at the airport, but I didn’t in the end because I wasn’t feeling well. I guess I also wanted to avoid the goodbye, it probably would remind me of my departure so much.

I miss you and have been thinking a lot about you and us. But since I am not in a really good emotional state now, I feel it’s better for me to let what I am thinking and feeling sink in for a little bit, before I share them with you. Meanwhile, just know that even though I may seem to be keeping my thoughts and feelings to myself, it doesn’t mean that I don’t want to share them with you. I want nothing more than being close with you and sharing everything about me with you. It’s just that sometimes it’s a tiring process for me to put them in words. For example like right now, I just really want a hug from you.

Miss you.

This was taken on sunday, our last breakfast together