Hello from Fukuoka

hello my dear, how are you? I miss you a lot.

I am writing from Fukuoka. After 0.5 day of travel getting up at 7am to get on a 11am flight, we arrived in the afternoon today.

Here is me at the cathay lounge at the airport this morning, this was the only alone time I had, cause my parents and brother couldn’t get in the lounge. (My mom hated my outfit because it showed my waist)

I almost forgot how demanding / mentally draining it is to go on a family trip with my parents. My parents have very different personalities and preferences on almost everything, so it’s hard to manage both of them at the same time, let alone satisfying my own desire or interest. Before the trip, I already told myself to not have any expectations, but still, it’s hard to not feel emotionally triggered at all when I’m stuck with them throughout the day.

I felt like I really need to better equip my mentality for this trip. So today when I was on my flight having some alone time, I decided to make use of that time to converse with God and pray for my own heart. I thought about how almost a year ago, I sacrificed my own money, energy, and time for 3 weeks to help my parents move to the UK. Now that I think back about those days, I don’t even know how I would have the patience and strength to get through those crazy days that were both physically and mentally exhausting. I know the tolerance that I demonstrated didn’t come from my own being. It was God who fueled me with love to overcome those tough feelings. So my prayer was that God would fuel me again with the same kind of love and prompt me throughout the rest of this 5 days trip to whenever I interact with my parents.

I hope they or my brother will get some nice photos of me in the next few days so that I can share with you :) But sadly for today, I only have this video of me driving our car in the parking. I looked so calm from the outside, but I was actually so stressed, haha.

miss you dear, I think a lot about you especially when my brother chatted with his girlfriend next to me just now in our hotel room. Good night.