Llandudno and hugs 🫂

hello dear, how was your Saturday? miss you ❤️‍🩹

Yesterday was a slightly difficult day for me because I had morning meetings with Vincent that started at 8am. Even though I was able to be awake for that, but because I didn’t have enough time to regulate my mental state first before I got up, I started feeling like crying half way through the meetings. It was very difficult for me mentally to get through the meetings even though the discussions were actually relatively chill for me. After the meetings were done, I immediately went back to bed and began crying.

I think what I am experiencing is actually called morning depression. But I don’t really know how I can resolve it. This has been one of the things that stresses me out the most whenever I work remotely from the UK. I can’t avoid having meetings in the morning in order to fit HK’s time zone. But sometimes it’s just really difficult for me mentally, because my mental state is usually the worst in the morning and I feel like it’s often out of my control that I can choose what mood I get up in, so it really feels frustrating for me sometimes when situation like yesterday happens.

Thankfully it was friday yesterday and today I didn’t have to get up as early. I actually still struggled a lot too this morning, but at least I could have enough time to regulate my mental state before having to get up. It’s still an uneasy process, the battle is real even it’s on in my head. But in the midst of that, there was this verse from the Bible that came to my mind: “This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.”

I was really challenged by it, especially when mornings are always the hardest for me. But at the same time, I know that it is a choice to make, to choose to embrace life and trust that even when I don’t feel like it, God is gracious to he’s prepared so much goodness in life for me to experience throughout the day.

And today, my parents amd I went on another day trip to North Wales this time. It’s a place called Llandudno - have you heard of it or been to? 😊 It’s really chill place with really nice landscape. And today’s weather was actually really nice, we even saw the sunset on the way back. I am always grateful for the good weather because I know it’s not every day that you get to see the sun and blue sky here in the UK.

It always brings me comfort when I get to admire God’s creation of the beautiful nature. And I know that the good weather and this pleasant road trip was God’s comfort for me for all the emotional turmoil I have been experiencing for the past few days.

Sending you a big hug, dear Andy. ❤️‍🩹 I hope you see God’s goodness in life too even when things are difficult.

I asked my mom to take good pictures of me, and this was the best one, hahaha