Long day

hello my dear, how are you today? I miss you.

I had a very long day, I managed to wake up in time to pick up my parents at the airport, I left home at 6:30ish and got there at 7:20am. My parents are quite excited to be back, or maybe they were just excited to see us again. After we got home, I still had to work for the full day and work was also quite busy. And then after work, I had to cook because my parents are too tired but they want to eat some home cooked dinner.

So after doing all these and finally getting to be back to my room and rest just now, I can feel that I am quite tired, both physically and mentally. The mental part is probably because I spent extra energy to manage my parents and “please” them throughout the day, and I guess I am just a bit overwhelmed and I kind of miss the time when I had a lot more personal space to be with myself and attend to my own mental needs.

I am even more worried because my friend’s funeral will be held tomorrow morning. I actually have been putting aside the emotions for the last few days, and I am not sure if I am ready to feel them again, especially when my mental state already isn’t very well. It actually makes me feel quite nervous about tomorrow because I worry I will be very overwhelmed but have to hide it inside me.

Miss you Andy. Here is my tiring look tonight, with big eyes.