Maybe it’s all in my head

hello dear, how was your day today? I miss you, a lot.

I went to JJ’s concert tonight with my brother, his gf got two tickets from her colleague, and even though I feel like I no longer like his music style and songs anymore, it’d still be nice to watch for the sake of good old memories. It turns out to be quite a good concert, I really respect his profession and am impressed by his singing techniques.

Edison asked me last week if I’ll be in the office this week. He didn’t say explicitly that he wants me to come in, and there also isn’t any work reason, but he said he’ll be in the office tomorrow, so I think I will go in too.

We’ve been texting a lot this weekend, but most of them are really really unimportant, random stuff like my car, his car, second hand cars, the Kai Tak stadium etc.

After being crowded with all the messy thoughts in my head over the weekend, my conclusion is, I hope that it’s all just me who is overthinking everything. I hope he genuinely sees me nothing more as a friend or a bro. And I hope that he will get a girlfriend soon, someone who sees the introverted nerdy side of him as cute, enjoys having intellectual conversations with him, shares the same hobbies as him, and really really loves him.

I don’t know why I have this weird feeling that I broke someone’s heart even I didn’t really do anything. It’s all in my head. And I really feel like drinking alcohol right now (in fact I felt that way too last night), but I really shouldn’t because my period is here.

Miss you so much Andy dear.