Miss you

hello dear, how are you? miss you loads.

I wanted to say that I was slightly recovered mentally, but after yesterday’s trip to Guangzhou for the trade show which I did 20000 steps and stayed up since 6am, I am just both physically and mentally tired now even after a day.

The trade show/trip was actually bearable, I think it was actually good that I got to make myself turn on my full work mode instead of thinking about much of other stuff. And I went to bed early last night after coming back. But when I woke up this morning, I could really feel how tired I am both mentally and physically, to an extent that I feel like I am awake and conscious but like a robot and can’t feel anything for the whole day.

But despite that, I still went in the office for a meeting, because Patrick was presenting and I know he was a bit stressed and I wanted to give him some moral support. After that meeting, I started to feel a bit sick, feeling very warm and drowsy. But I think I am not actually getting sick, it’s probably my body’s reaction to me being stressed and exhausted.

I decided to go home early at around 5pm, and I’ve been resting since then.

I want to sleep soon, and just wanted to drop you this post before that because, I think I am really doing not very okay. I know in my head that I need time to recover, just as it did every time I experienced a mental breakdown crisis. But the process to recover still feels terrible, and I really miss the moral support you’d give me every time I struggled.

miss you.