miss you :(

hello dear, how are you?

Sorry that I haven’t been writing a lot of words here in the last few days, I am still trying to feel better by resting earlier.

I feel like I am finally a bit calmer in the last few days, especially during the day and I can concentrate for a bit longer at work. But from time to time I could still feel that I get emotionally triggered about some random or small things. Sometimes it might be a soft melody that dragged me back in a melancholy mood, sometimes it’s just the way my brother says things that makes me feel misunderstood and disregarded.

I thought I was feeling better as I went to bed last night, but then I had this random dream where I was so angry about something and I tried screaming at someone about it, but I couldn’t make a sound. I woke up feeling like that was such as a deep dream that I couldn’t wake up from.

I don’t have to go in the office this week, but I remember my chinese doctor said I should go out for walks more even I can work from

home, so I went out this afternoon during lunch to do some grocery shopping. My eyes still look a bit swollen.

Today is also supposed to be the day I exercise at home, but I didn’t really feel like doing it. But I still convinced myself in the end that maybe I could do a really short and easy one to just get my body moving for a bit, and maybe I would feel better, right?

Miss you, dear Andy. I miss having you to be around me and inspiring me with your energy.