Mom’s birthday

hello my dear, how was your day? miss you a lot.

Today is my mom’s birthday. I know my mom values quality time, so I spared the whole day for her by doing different things with her or for her.

In the morning, we had an appointment at the bank to sort out some financial stuff. Without sharing too much detail here, basically since my parents now have half moved in the UK, my mom wants to start handing over some of her assets in HK to my brother and I. So there’re some banking stuff that we need to sort out together.

I don’t know if I shared this with you before, but I always see myself as “not a finance” person. I just have some weird resistance over anything related to finance subconsciously and I guess it is because deep down, I see it as something very worldly, and I tend to be put off by that. And it also stresses me out to think about finances because it always involves longer term planning which is again something that I tend to avoid especially when my mental state is not as good. I would have extreme thoughts like, what is so important about money, because we can’t take them with us anyway when we die. It is kind of sarcastic because I graduated from one of best business schools in the world for my bachelor degree. But I guess that’s also why I hate the “business” world so much because I felt like I never fit into that world.

But when I was on the way to the bank this morning and feeling troubled by how I have been surrounded by the topic “money” so much lately, I thought about the question I had been asking myself in the past 1-2 weeks - what are the area of things that I feel God wants me to focus on or grow in this particular season in life that feels like a wilderness. And I suddenly felt like perhaps money/finances is one of the things.

I felt like God was trying to equip me with a more balanced, healthy mindset of dealing with these “realistic” things in life like money. Instead of simply seeing them as worldly and meaningless, but to learn to view these and manage them in a more “Godly” way.

I feel it’s hard for me to elaborate this properly here by writing. Perhaps this can be one of the things I share about with you one day in person. But for now, I guess what I mean is, I am making progress.

Lastly, before I go to sleep, here is my outfit today for this humid stuff spring weather. The cardigan to cover this bra top, so that my mom won’t lecture me.

Miss you.