Office birthday cake

hello dear, how are you? 😊 I miss you.

I didn’t write here last night because I was very tired after being in the office and I had to rush to get rest early - I had a 7am meeting with Vincent this morning.

Yesterday when I was in the office, I distributed my banana bread. I was a bit nervous and embarrassed at first, but over time I felt more natural and comfortable :) Everyone seemed to really like it, I hope they weren’t pretending, haha.

And turns out aside from a lunch with the IF team, they also prepared a birthday cake for me and another guy. You probably don’t know him, he is another designer like Patrick. His birthday is on the 20th, just a day before me. It’s kinda funny because it’s actually a banana cake :)

The last time I got a birthday celebration was in 2021, I still remember the team made me a siumai birthday cake, haha. But the most memorable part for me was actually that we two also did a mini cake in the studio 😊 I loved that a lot, because it was just the two of us and it felt private :)

I actually still don’t know how I am going to feel about my birthday yet for this year. I remember how resistant I was at first last year because a “happy birthday” seemed really far away for me that time. I guess it does still feel that way for me this year to some degree. In fact, I don’t know why for the last few days, I have been crying a lot more than my usual (which is already a lot, haha). But I also remember last year how I learnt to still gladly accept the blessings and love from people around me even I might not always feel ready to receive it.

So just like yesterday, even though the scene of birthday celebration in office may trigger some emotions for me, I still feel grateful that they included me for the celebration, because I am actually not part of their team. And more importantly, I know that these emotions I am feeling will pass eventually and I don’t have to be trapped by them.

Miss you, my dear Andy 🤍 like really really miss you. And here is me today, I took a day off today (except I had a 7am meeting, haha) and I went to visit my chinese doctor and then had vocal class.

Some ugly photo and video of the birthday cake time :)

Good night Andy 🤍