Office day

hello dear, how are you? I miss you a lot.

Sorry that I didn’t write here yesterday, I had a very long day. I facetimed with my parents in the evening after dinner to sort out some financial stuff and errands, and then I spent some time to prepare for my part for the upcoming Vietnam mission trip. I had to suggest some songs for the kids camp.

After ditching Edison on Monday, I went in to the office today finally. He told me yesterday that he’s going to be in office today and friday, and I felt that I should make up for not showing up on Monday, so I went in.

I think because we were in the office instead of going on a trip together like what we did last week to Macau, and there were also other people in the office, we were both more inclined to be in our work mode today. The only moment I felt he acted cheeky was when I asked him if he is making coffee after lunch which is his routine in the office, but then he said no, and then laughed and asked which beans I want to have today after I gave him a very disappointing expression asking why. But it probably is just me overthinking and being too sensitive. Maybe guys just find it fun to do that to me because of I look silly sometimes.

After today, I still feel unsure about all these. I actually have been sharing some of these with my chinese dcotor, and while he kept jokingly encouraging me to try it out with Edison, he’s been giving me some genuine advice too. One of the things that he said that I really agree with was, if someone really likes you, you’ll be able to feel it.

The truth is, I don’t think I can feel that clearly from Edison so far. Instead, what came to my mind immediately of having that feeling, was the way you looked at me, or sometimes, the way you had to look away from me, during our time together at Meyer.

I miss that a lot. That was my best memory of how I knew someone really liked me.

Good night, dear Andy. Miss you.