Peace

hello dear, how are you? miss you. The weather is a lot cooler these two days, are you enjoying it?

After two days of taking my chinese appointment and giving myself time to rest, I think I am finally feeling a bit better today.

I went into the office yesterday and I was actually feeling really off still, but in a different way. It’s like I could feel that my mind has been cleared off and I don’t feel anything, but at the same time it’s a very surreal feeling. Because of that everything feels very unreal to me and I felt like my brain is running so slow, as if I am “stoned”. I also felt really warm the whole day but I wasn’t having a fever. I’m not sure if these are the effect of my chinese medicine. It might also be that I was in the office and subconsciously I was feeling stressed and perplexed. My chinese doctor asked me to observe for another day.

I got through the day in the office in the end, with a lot of meetings. And I had a relative peaceful night of sleep last night, and I actually felt better waking up this morning. I feel really grateful because l don’t always get that, a peaceful heart to properly rest. It just so happened that one of the bible verses I was reading this morning during my devotional was “Let the peace of Christ rule in your heart.” It really feels like a blessing that God wanted me to experience in the midst of my mental struggles.

Tomorrow I will be going to Guangzhou again, staying for a night this time till Saturday. It’s probably gonna be a tiring trip because Vincent is coming too. Howe, Edison, and Patrick are also going. For most people, they probably worry about being physically tired from going to these trade shows. But for me, it’s also mentally too, to figure out how to find a safe mental space for myself through the trip. That is also why I feel that reminder from God is just so timely for me, to learn to rest in peace that God has given me.

Good night and miss you. hugs 🫂

Me yesterday going into the office