Period face

miss you my dear, how was your weekend?

I woke up in the middle of the night last night because of period cramps :( I had to take two painkillers in order to fall back to sleep.

I wanted to rest today because the pain is really bad, but I had to go to the briefing of my therapist friend’s wedding. She is getting married on 1 December. I am not sure if I told you, but I will be her maid of honour during the wedding ceremony at church. This is my first time being a bridesmaid/maid of honour, I think I am getting a bit nervous especially that I’ll be the first to walk down the aisle during the march in.

I’m not sure why but this morning, I suddenly had this strong feeling of “it’s coming to the end of a year”.

I remember how I got so anxious and depressed when this similar feeling hit me around the same time last year. I guess I somehow still feel a bit scared inside about this whole “a year has gone by” kind of realisation. But at least compared to last year, I think I feel a lot more secured and at peace as I approach the end of the year, even though I still don’t have all the things I have been waiting for and I am still struggling with my mental illness.

It is probably still too early to look back at 2024 now, haha. But this morning I was also thinking about this moment I had at the beginning of this year when I was in Malta, where I felt God spoke to me that he promises he will help me see light and goodness in life in the midst of my darkness, and I will experience his love for me all over again.

Without even realising it, I think all the things I have gone through and overcome this year, the big and baby steps I have made, they all echo to this healing journey that God has taken me on. And I know that I am still in the process, but I am

already feeling very grateful because of how authentic and fruitful everything has been that I have experienced so far.

Want to give you a big big hug. I guess you already know it because I say it almost in every post. But I miss you a lot, Andy dear, my favourite person on this planet. Good night 🤍

My tiring sad face today because of my period: