Post typhoon and Car

hello dear, how are you? Hope you stayed safe during the typhoon.

In the end my place was fine except water leaking from windows in all the rooms. It’s manageable, at least not the worst kind of damage. The typhoon seemed to be less strong than Mangkhut at my place, but the wind was still quite scary especially in the middle of the night. Also, I think the typhoon triggered my Ménière’s disease because of the change of pressure and the building swaying. I was feeling dizzy the whole day yesterday even after the wind subsided. I finally feel slightly better today.

I also wanted to share with you that after more than a month, there is finally another listing of the car I want that seems to fit all my criteria. I was considering and wanted to see more photos, so I reached out to the owner, but he is very chill and said I can come view the car if I want. So I decided to go have a look, and I asked Edison if he could come with me. In fact, he was the one who sent me that listing in the first place and has been giving me so much advice and explanation based on what he sees from those photos.

So he said he could go with me and we will be going there this Saturday. And now I am starting to feel nervous, partly because it’s my first time going to car viewing, but also because I haven’t gone out with him during weekends for so long. I know this isn’t a date or anything like that at all, and it also probably won’t take long, but I don’t know why I am still nervous.

And I don’t know why this whole thing reminds me of Neil (the guy I dated for a short time). Edison gave me short and cold replies when I tried to figure out the time and place for the viewing. I remember Neil tended to be like that too, and it always made me feel sad inside because I would think that maybe he didn’t really want to meet.

But I guess this is a totally different situation with Edison, we aren’t dating and he in general is a cold texter with me anyway. I guess I’ll never be able to figure him out, like why he’d be cold to me in his replies sometimes, but then he would suddenly text me back later on. Sometimes it makes me want to be cold to him too, but I know it doesn’t work that way with him, so I’d remind myself to just be myself in front of him.

Maybe in his eyes I’m like a little sister who needs to be taken care of. And he is definitely acting like my bigger brother more than my actual brother.

An example of how I bother him with my problems everyday, and him trying not to be annoyed and give me practical advice:

Him commenting on everything he observed about the car

So much I wish he was my actual brother, then I could just be a sister well taken care of without having to overthink how he sees me and not be worried about crossing the line.

No nice photos in this post because I’ve been at home. But here is a selfie before I took the 11:30pm meeting last night. Good night.