Social day

hello dear, how are you? miss you 🤍

Today was such a busy but fruitful day for me. I went to the car inspection with Edison in Fanling. In short, it all went smoothly and nothing too serious that causes me to reconsider my purchase decision. And it was also a very pleasant and fruitful experience for me, I learnt more about the car and the car c fu was really patient and detailed during the inspection, that makes me feel quite confident. And because Edison has become friends with the c fu, we hanged around the shop for quite a while which was quite fun. So right now I will have to sort out the car insurance and other stuff.

Edison and I also had late lunch together afterwards, so we spent half day together. I am glad that it didn’t feel awkward. I think both of us returned back to the point of our relationship where we are both quite comfortable with each other as friends. And this actually set a very good mental state for me as I went to meet that guy afterwards.

We met at QuarryBay and had a good chat. At first it was a bit odd for me because he was just being himself as if nothing happened. Until I just couldn’t wait and had to ask him if there’s anything you want to share with me. That was when the conversation went deeper. Basically he told me that he figured that at this stage, it’s very hard for him to go full on with a romantic relationship without a clearer picture of his career. The reason he said that is because he just reapplied for the Cadet program, and he feels like as a man, he needs to have a more stable and clearer career path before he could explore other things. He also lightly mentioned that his talk with his ex gf made him feel even more uncertain with her, but he will need time to have it dissolved.

I think that is a good direction that he figured out to put his career first, and it actually eased my mind quite a bit, because then I don’t have to feel as stressed that he is trying to rush anything with me. I think for me, I just really want to be friends with him at this stage.

So I also shared with him about how I have been feeling in the last few days because of the question he asked. Turns out, he wasn’t even aware that it was offensive, he explained that this is one of his weakness that he just throws any thoughts out when he’s stressed and didn’t realise he mjght have hurt someone. He needs people to point that out directly with him whenever that happens. He also apologised as I shared about my feelings.

I then also took the chance to nicely communicate with him, that since we want to still remain as friends now but not anything further, I hope that reflects in our interactions, for example how frequently we text each other and meet, and things that we talk about.

I came out feeling it was a good chat because I communicated the most important few things that I wanted to say in a mature way. It was not easy at all for me as you know, I am such a conflict avoidant and so private about my emotions. When I was trying to talk, I felt so uncomfortable as I looked for the right words to express why I felt offended and emotional because of what he said. But I feel like that was also the last step I needed to finish processing my feelings and forgive him, and move past it and continue to be friends.

So after all these social interactions for the whole day, Hannah is dead tired now and should really rest. Will try to share more again. Miss you and good night 🤍