Team annual dinner that I skipped

hello, how are you my dear?

Today I could finally feel that I am coughing less, but still quite a lot. I hope I will stop coughing in the next few days, as I feel pain at my ribs from all my coughing :(

There was actually a Meyer Labs annual dinner tonight at Causeway Bay. I was invited to join and planned to attend at first, but then I got sick and I had been thinking the whole day if I should still go. I decided not to go in the end, mainly because I don’t want to spread the germs around and I think the oily heavy hotpot food will make my coughing worse, and I really really want to recover sooner. But it’s also because I want to give myself some space to rest.

I am feeling a bit more emotionally stable today compared to the day before, but I feel like I am still in the “I just want to be on my own” mode. And I have been thinking about what I wrote yesterday about finding a balance between doing all the things I think I “should” do and giving myself the space to retreat and recharge.

I know that it’s not like I wouldn’t enjoy the team dinner at all, because indeed I haven’t met them for quite awhile (more than a month). But I decided that instead of making myself to shift all mental energy to “enjoy” the dinner, I feel like giving myself time to rest both mentally and physically is a better decision for myself this time.

So instead, I just spent tonight sorting out a bit of the upcoming Fukuoka family trip, watching some videos to relax myself, and just lying on bed most of the time.

Miss you, Andy. I think I am feeling tired also because my period is coming soon. Here is me before going to sleep (can’t decide which one looks less ugly, so decided to put both here). Good night dear, miss you and love you.