The 1000th day
- May 14
- 3 min read
Updated: May 14
hello dear, how are you? dropping you a post tonight on this day for a special reason :)
Today is the 1000th day since we last met, on 23rd August 2023, the last day when you came back for a freelance project at Meyer :) You might be surprised how I keep track of the number of days haha, there’s actually been a little day count widget that I added on my phone, just a tiny reminder for myself whenever I swipe on my phone :)
Interesting enough, I happen to have to go in the office today as well. Despite it being a super busy day at work, towards the end of the day, I decided to slow down for a little bit to just give myself some time to think back on the last 1000 days since we parted in this same office that I’m still at.
When I went to the toilet on the 2/F (the office floor), my eyes paused at that little private room with curtain next to the toilets for an extra few seconds longer than I usually would stare at that room. My memories flashed back, I remember the tears I shed in that room, the last few hugs I gave you when I told you “I’m gonna miss you a lot” before we had to go.
So much I miss about your presence in this same space, but at the same time, I was thinking how you would be so proud of me if you were here to see how much I’ve grown.
Just as you always encouraged me, I go out to have lunch with the team these days whenever I’m in the office. (yes!! can you imagine hannah not avoiding people?)
When I’m with the group, sometimes I’m still the quiet introvert Hannah, but other times, I bring joy and laughters to others with the cheeky and silly side of me (I just made Patrick laugh happily today because I pronounced “bananaaaa” the same way as the Minions do 🍌).
I now know that people like Edison calls me Princess or baby and enjoy teasing me, because they see me as the Hannah they watch growing up. Work still stresses me out when I’m overwhelmed, but I’ve learnt to take it easy and laugh it off when things are just chaotic, rather than being overly troubled by the weight of responsibility I carry. I make sure I drink 2L of water every day and pee in the office despite my back to back meetings. I’ve learnt that I can be humble while demonstrating leadership at the same time, by being someone who is empathetic, accepting, and encouraging.
I feel like I can keep going with how much I’ve grown for the last 1000 days. How our goodbye was the toughest one I have ever gone through so far in life, but God was still able to bring something good out of it.
“But you’re never without me. The next time that you jump off a cliff or tell Bruno to quit bothering you, that’s me.” Do you remember this quote? hint: it’s from the movie Luca :)
Miss you, my dear friend, but also thank you for always believing in me :’)
How Hannah looks in the office today, in 2026! 😊
lastly :) I finally covered this song that always reminds me of you. Every time I feel doubtful about myself, I listen to this song to remind myself not to forget to love and treat myself well too while I try to take care of the world. ❤️🩹🫂
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