The coincidence

hello dear, how was your day? Miss you.

After having my friend at my home till late night on Sunday, I got really exhausted when I woke up the next morning (yesterday). But then I still had to go in the office because I had to review some samples. I also had quite a lot of meetings where I had to do a lot of talking, so by the end of the day, my mental energy was really drained.

Edison was in the office too. I don’t know why, but he was a bit off too yesterday and he also said to me that he was very out of it.

I don’t know if I shared with you before, but because we both drive to work and live on the Island side, it’s been a while that we had developed this habit where we will leave the office together and I will follow him on the road. But yesterday when I got out of the carpark but still didn’t see his car, I decided to ditch him (again) and run away because I was just really exhausted mentally and I really wanted to go home.

I felt really bad about it actually as I drove because it felt a bit impolite and I don’t know how he’ll interpret that. But then what blew my mind was, when I was waiting at the lights at the exit of the Island East Corridor, he caught up with me and I saw his car behind me. It blew my mind at two levels, first was how fast he drove that he was able to catch me. But at a deeper level, this is almost like a reflection of our relationship: How I fell so hard for him many years ago only to find out he’s not interested and that broke me quite badly, but we still managed to work out as friends until in the past year, we happened to have to work closely together on a few projects, even had to travel to Thailand last year and then Macau few weeks back. It’s like I am somehow stuck with him and even though I tried running away, I still ended up bumping into him again in life.

In fact last Sunday, I went to a fishball noodles place in Causeway Bay with my friend. And since that fishball noodles place is also Edison’s favourite, I took a photo of the noodles and sent it to him when I was there. And to my surprise, 45 minutes after, he sent me back a photo that he’s also there with his parents. But at that time, I already left the restaurant, and even though I was still around the area, I decided not to come by and say hi because my friend was with me.

My initial thought was that was such a funny coincidence. But the more I think about it, I don’t know if that can be seen as just a simple coincidence, or he deliberately chose to show up because I was just there.

I shared these with my chinese doctor today during my appointment. And he kept saying that it wasn’t just a coincidence. He said this kind of things (like showing up at where the girl is or was) is exactly what guys would do if they are into the girl.

I am still not certain about interpreting his actions as that he has feelings for me, because Edison is not just a normal guy, and he also did misleading things similar to these many years ago but ended up telling me he’s not interested in me.

I don’t really know what to think about all these anymore. And in fact, I am not even sure if I know how my heart feels about this, if he does have feelings for me.

Good night, dear Andy. Miss you loads.