The wedding day and ugly me

hello my dear, how are you? I have been missing you sooooooooooooo much. Sorry that I could only share with you here now because I was exhausted after the wedding day on Sunday. I took today off and woke up at almost noon, but then I had to go for vocal class and chinese doctor appointment, and then clear some chores that I usually do during weekends. Yesterday felt like a dream, so I also wanted to make sure I had the time and space to digest.

The wedding day went great and smooth. It’s definitely a fresh experience for me because it’s my first time joining a full day of wedding and being a bridesmaid (my friend had the morning hotel session, church ceremony in the afternoon, and then chinese banquet at night). But it’s also super tiring for me, especially in the afternoon, because as the maid of honour during the church ceremony, I had to fix her dress to make sure it looks nice, and stand next to her the whole time, I feel like I did a lot of “squats” exercises and my muscles were super sore when I woke up today.

I think I did okay during the march in even though I was actually quite nervous. Here are some photos :)

(to be honest, I think I don’t look pretty at all even though I had all these things that are supposed to make me pretty like make up, contact lenses, and the dress 🙈 )

I feel really happy for my therapist friend. I don’t mind doing all the heavy lifting for her at all actually, even being the ugly one haha. She is one of the kindest person I have known, and she’s one of the few who knows about my dark moments. She is also a Christian so I feel our connection is quite unique compared to other friends that I have. I felt like crying for several times but I didn’t because I don’t like crying when everyone is crying, haha.

My brother and his girlfriend came to the wedding too and they took some photos of me. I don’t think I look pretty at all, but I guess you’ll want to see how I look like 🙈

I am overall really joyful about the wedding, but it also makes me miss you a lot a lot a lot.

I miss you when I saw the photographers and videographers around (thinking about how you are my all time favourite videographer), I miss you the most when I hear my friend and her husband’s love story.

Today my chinese doctor mentioned he and his gf might get married next year, but just very low profile. Then he suddenly asked about you, and then he sighed and said why do you not find another guy?

I feel like the more people ask that kind of questions, the more I am sure that I don’t want to find another guy, haha.

I love our story, even though I still don’t know where it will go. But I really like how it started, and where it can go, it’s my favourite love story amongst all that I have seen and heard of. Just thinking about it makes me tear up. 🙈🥺

Miss you and love you, Andy dear.

I think I will miss you even more as December and my birthday and christmas approaches.

lastly, a unfiltered photo of me on bed tonight to balance out all the “pretentious” wedding photos.

Good night 🤍