Tired Hannah

hello dear, how are you?

miss you 🤍 sorry that I didn’t write here yesterday. I mainly just had church and then vocal class yesterday. But I feel that my busy schedule is catching up and I was just really tired last night by 10pm. I was supposed to do some research for my car insurance, but I couldn’t even finish it.

Because I went to church, I met the guy again and he asked if we could sit together for the service. But because I also had to go for my vocal class afterwards and he works at church so he’s quite busy on Sundays, we didn’t really have much interaction.

I think right now I am quite comfortable with where we are at. After chatting about it on Saturday, I think he’s now slightly more aware of the boundaries. He wouldn’t suddenly call me to chat, and we also don’t text as frequently as before, even though we still continue to text and he would share about what he’s doing a lot.

I actually asked him if he’d be okay to watch Wicked 2 with me in the cinema this Saturday. I thought about it for quite a while before asking, I wasn’t sure because I don’t want him to misunderstand that we are going on a date, but I also genuinely want to just hang out with him a bit more as friends so that we can understand each other more. Plus, I really want to watch Wicked 2, and I don’t have other friends who would watch it with me :( So I told him that’s reason I asked if he is willing to go with me, and he said he can go with me. I hope that it would be a pleasant hangout for both sides.

You might be wondering how I truly feel about him. I think so far, I really still just see him as a friend. There are some qualities in his personality that makes me enjoy his presence, like he is funny and spontaneous, but also very energetic to an extent that I would get annoyed and start to put on a cool face. I think I will understand what I mean because you have that same effect on me 🙈 But at the same time, as I chat with him, I feel like I struggle to sync up with him at a deeper level. Sometimes I want to share something deeper or more abstract, but I don’t think he was able to connect. And as you know me, I really value being able to share that connection and sensitivity in a relationship, that is also why I fall so deeply with you.

That’s all for tonight, dear. Sorry that I don’t have any photos for today because I worked from home. Good night 🤍