Unfortunate long day

hello dear, how are you? I miss you :(

Today was a long and unfortunate day for me. First I had an 8am meeting at home, then I had to head in the office for a meeting with Disney HK team.

I thought Edison would go in to the office too (and I didn’t ask him beforehand), but turns out he didn’t go in the office. He’s my closest colleague these days and I sit next to him, I guess I am so used to him being around, I didn’t expect myself to feel this sad when he’s not here today. And because he was not here, I had to collect the samples I needed for my meeting by myself, I joked to him “princess Hannah hasn’t had to carry her samples for awhile.” It’s starting to feel like how it was when I had to be in office when you’re not there, I remember I used to feel really sad when I had to go in without you, like 20 times more sad today.

But I am aware that I don’t want myself to develop attachment too much on Edison, so I tried to adjust myself and I asked Howe to have lunch together (he was the only one in the office from IF team today). But his meeting overran, so in the end I just had lunch on my own. And because Edison was not here to make coffee, I also had to go buy coffee myself after lunch. It felt a bit quiet and lonely.

It was already a sad half day for me secretly because of all these. And then my meeting with Disney was also very long and dragging. It wasn’t an unpleasant meeting, it’s just that it lasted for almost 2.5 hours and it’s so draining for me. I think it’s partly because my period is here soon, I was really exhausted physically and mentally when it ended and couldn’t wait to go home.

So it was a long and slightly unfortunate day for me. But I guess I will sit with the sadness for a while and let myself be that emo little girl for a bit. I actually have to go to the office again tomorrow because I didn’t finish all my work in the office today.

Miss you dear.

How I looked at the office today, but I actually looked like this inside:

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