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Miss you, Andy.

Yesterday was the first time I visited my chinese doctor after coming back. I have been struggling with jetlag quite a bit in the last few days, I feel so drowsy in the morning but couldn’t sleep at night. After checking my pulse, he said that he thinks it’s not just because of jetlag, it’s my stress and emotions too. This time, I tried my best not to deny it, I just quietly nodded my head to acknowledge what he said.

He gifted me some coffee drip bags as a surprise this time, and towards the end of the session, he gave me some really caring gestures and a warm but a bit shy smile before he left. I always feel very blessed leaving the clinic. As you know me, I only feel safe in front of very selective people, especially after having these mental issues, and he happened to be able to make me feel safe enough at least to some level.

He seems a lot more relaxed in front of me this time too, no longer that shy or awkward. He’s probably also happy because I brought him some cookware and other stuff from Paris.

I am glad to see him happy. But I don’t know why, it makes me miss you a lot more after seeing him today. I guess I do somehow projected some of my love for you to him. And when I get the chance to be nice and spoil him, I just wish I had the chance to do the same for you, but with 100 more times of intensity.

(Went in the office after visiting him)

Some more photos from the day before

Miss you, Andy.

And today, my brother is finally returning from Paris/UK. Since it’s a holiday, I can actually pick him up at the airport. But I decided to do more than just that. Before I set off, I bought his breakfast for the next two days, and then coffee to bring to the airport to pick him up. Then after we got home, I did his laundry and cooked our dinner, then did the dishes as well.

I decided to do these because I guess I more than anyone know how tiring long haul travel can be, and how comforting it can be to have someone to help you settle back home after a long flight. And I know at least what I can do is to treat others the way I want to be treated.

Here is the ugly dinner I made, most of them are actually ready made dishes that I need to reheat.

Miss you a lot, my dear.